People my age often talk about “healing” in my community, which usually refers to a quick getaway or a brief escape from monotonous routines, such as travel, nature, or cafés. However, that was not the kind of healing I experienced. My healing came through illness, fear, and ultimately God’s grace. It was not a trip outside, but an inward journey. A healing of my body, mind, and faith.
I have always considered myself grateful. Growing up in a religious family, I was taught to pray and thank God every day. Over time, however, I realised that I had been doing it out of habit rather than from the heart.
I also struggle with health anxiety. Every small change in my body can make me anxious and overthink, sometimes leading to panic attacks. One day, I became very ill and spent nearly two weeks in the hospital. Those days were some of the hardest I have ever experienced. It happened during my birthday week, and all my plans had to be canceled. I felt hopeless, scared, and confused about what was happening to my body. I remember thinking that each day might be my last.
Yet during those difficult days, I felt more connected to God than ever before. I found peace in daily readings, prayer, and worship music. I kept reminding myself that He was working, that He would heal me, and that I was safe in His hands. That faith gave me strength and hope each day.
After leaving the hospital, the healing process continued to be challenging. I needed to recover not only physically, but psychologically as well. My health anxiety made me fear the worst daily, and it often felt like a constant battle with my own mind. Eventually, I began seeing a psychologist who helped me understand my fears rather than fight them. She taught me to speak to them gently, as if talking to a friend. Slowly, I learned how to calm my thoughts instead of letting them control me.
She also encouraged me to practice gratitude, genuine gratitude. That was when I started using the Gratitude App. The daily prompts helped me appreciate my healing, my body, my mind, and God’s grace in my life. Even though being sick was incredibly difficult, it brought unexpected blessings. Better habits, deeper faith, more time with God, and a stronger relationship with myself. Some of my plans were canceled, but I now see that God’s plan was far greater than my own.
I am still in the healing process, but I am grateful. Grateful for life, for growth, for my family who supported me through the hardest days, for my friends who continue to stand by me, and for God’s grace that carries me every single day.
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